...you know, sometimes it's so very hard to find a bit of happiness in the world and at times, the only way to feel happy is to know that there are others in the world who are worse off than yourself, so you feel guilty for feeling bad because you're having a bad day.
*sighs*Well, even so, I guess I'm going to have the guilt of feeling self pity for at least a day or so.
It's been a difficult week for me. Traveling down to Virginia was harrowing because going anywhere with a moody 7 month pregnant woman is trying on anyone's nerves. ...then, it was hot as Hellfire down there. I mean, it wasn't just that it was hot, it was hot as well as humid. I felt like I was walking around in hot water. But, I did get to see my father and brother and we did get to go to Busch Gardens, so that was nice.
Getting home, I think I must have been dehydrated. I went on a date the Monday that I was back in the city and felt like I was going to die. We had dinner and I barely touched the food. I asked if he would mind if we called it an early night which he didn't mind, but the next day, he told me that he was kind of disappointed. I asked him why and he told me that it was because he really liked me a lot and felt that I wasn't into him at all. I told him that I wasn't feeling well and he said he remembered, but that it seemed like I wasn't into him. So, then I explained that I felt like I was going to faint as well as the fact that I was having great difficulty keeping my food in my belly. He said that he didn't know that and that he was sorry. He wanted to know if there was anything that he could do and I told him that I just needed to rest and drink lots of liquids. He told me that he wanted me to make sure that I take care of myself because he really cares about me which was nice to hear, even though it was a first date.
...then, of course, there's holt issues. One member pretty much spit in my face and called me a hypocrite and prejudice and when I asked her not to, she said that she wouldn't because she was speaking her mind and that because she wasn't saying that I was hypocritical, just my words. So, finally, me reaching my breaking point, I told her that her words were moronic (not her, just her words) and she promptly told me that I was malicious and quit in addition to giving me a first and final warning on her site. Then, the next morning another member asked me, "What happened?" and started jumping on my case saying that I shouldn't have deleted her account if I was angry and that that was unfair...BLAH BLAH BLAH...to which I simply replied, "I didn't delete her account." ...which I didn't. I later came to find out that the girl who blew up at me first has her father going into surgery on the 19th of June while the second member told me the next day that she's having issues in her personal life as well. So, I'm inclined to let this all slide, but I am tired of being people's punching bag and the INSTANT I fight back, I get chewed out. That really sucks.
So, I think I'm going to take a break from this unnecessary drama. I definitely don't need this now, especially not after the horrible news I received today from my father. Honestly, I don't want to share it because I'll just burst into tears here at work and I'll just be beside myself.
I know that God doesn't give you more than you can handle, but sometimes it seems like He's attacking me from all sides at once. I know He's not, but this is very nearly unbearable. So, I'm desperately searching for my happy thought, trying to find it and hold it securely against my heart. My stomach has been upset for a few days (possibly from being dehydrated) and my heart is giving me issues, too. I definitely don't need undue stress, but the issue that my father ringed me about is pressing against my heart because it IS important. ...but there's nothing that I can do.
*sighs*So, I guess I'm reaching out to all of you to beg for your thoughts and prayers. Please just pray for my family and in particularly, my little brother. I know for a fact that prayer works, so I'm pleading with everyone to please keep my family in their prayers. We can't do this alone, so please, can you just spare a moment to think about us and send up a little prayer our situation. Thanks so much for listening. Take care.
Have a Blessed Day!
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About the holt issue, from an outsider POV, I'll just say this: nobody needs fannish drama on top of real-life drama, and it always sucks when it happens. It's also terrible when you're the one in the hot-seat, running a place; people will always second-guess you.
In some ways it makes sense when someone's real-life issues affect their fannish expression; the former makes them thin-skinned and it explodes just everywhere, but perhaps it explodes the most in a medium where almost all of the time, communication is through a computer-screen, and the others aren't as "real" to us as people we meet in everyday life.
In short: I don't have infinite patience with the "she has things going on in real-life, so that excuses her exploding all over you". It's an explanation for it, maybe; it's not a good excuse, and I don't care WHAT is going on in someone's personal life. If you can't handle online interactions because of real-life stress, then take a hiatus, step away from the computer. Online friends really DON'T deserve to become punching bags.
*hugs* again.
Thanks for your words, Honey.
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